Do I have another option?

Hey how ya going? Hows it been? Yes yes yes I'm still alive. Exhausted, barely functioning, but still alive.

Needless to say--I have been busy. And along with neglecting my health (I do not even want to think about what I've put my body through at the moment), I've also neglected my friends. For that, my loves, I'm terribly sorry. I'm a horrible horrible person.

Please forgive me, I know not what I do.

Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you.

So summer is here. I was going to say almost here, but I'm sitting here in sticky humidity with the back door wide open and a breeze tickling against my skin. Summer is here.

Time to save up for Christmas presents, look awkward with fluorescent legs whilst I don shorts, hunt for a new bathing suit, try not to loose the two pairs of sunglasses that I recently bought to replace the two pairs of sunglasses I have lost last year, and start thinking about what to do for New Years Eve. Which is probably nothing. Because I'm beginning to hate New Years Eve.

My dear friend Miriam announced her distaste for New Years Eve a couple of months ago, and come to think of it, so do I. So I resign to do nothing to bring in the New Year this year, because I really couldn't give a shit enough to go out of my way to think about the year that has been and then think about the year that is to come. I would rather think about the moment that is now. Eckhart Tolle much? Meh. I don't know.

So Miriam, despite you hating New Years Eve, and not wanting to do anything, would you like to do nothing on New Years Eve together? I, for one, would like to have a Black Books/Dylan Moran marathon, drinking wine, laughing my ass off, and then passing out on the couch only to wake up to go to my bed and sleep for the rest of the day there. What do you say? Well, I'll get back to you on that I suppose. ;-)

Summer also means summer holidays. Meaning free time. Meaning catching up with friends. Some friends you catch up with you can pick up where you left off. Other friends take a little more effort:

THEM: "Hey how are you I haven't seen you in ages what are you doing?!?!?!"

ME: "Nothing much."

Awkward pause.

THEM: "Cool."

ME: "Yeah, I guess it is. How are you?"

THEM: "Yeah, really good, everything's fine, boring you know, but fine."

ME: "Well that's good."

THEM: "Yeah it's fine."

ME: "Sure."

THEM: "You seeing anyone?"

ME: "No."

THEM: "Really? It's been a while for you now hey?"

ME: "I haven't been counting actually. Probably because I've had something to occupy my time with."

THEM: "Ha ha ha. Oh you're so funny. But seriously, there's no one?"

ME: "Well, I wouldn't say no one. Yesterday a guy waved and winked at me, and then gave me the finger when I didn't care to respond. The week before that I was propositioned by a 50 year old man. A month before that a friend of mine offered me 'a hand' with my 'situation' and was then offended by my decline of his offer, and a few months before that I had my drink spiked. So I guess I couldn't really say there's no one."

THEM: "....I've gotta go."

And so do I. Fraiser's on.