There is hope after all.

Sometimes you've just got realize that there's nothing you can do about it, and just say 'Fuck it'.

Fuck it, and fuck them.

You try, you try and then you try some more. I bend over backwards trying to please people, and not rock the boat, but that backfires too.

Well, seeing as I just can't do anything right, I might as well just say 'Fuck it.'

Fuck it.

And fuck them all.

Today I just had this moment of clarity. It came as I was sobbing uncontrolably in public, but it was clarity all the same. People are nuts

They're insane.

They're also shallow, stubborn, selfish, and self- centered. They can't see past their own nose, and they have no feelings of empathy.


Things have become so clear.

All this time I've been sitting there thinking that I'm the one with the problem. Everything I seem to touch turns to shit. All those years of doubting myself, convinced I would never amount to anything, and wallowing within my depression and insecurities, it all stems from being in an environment of TOTAL WHACKJOBS!

So I'm working towards getting out of here. I'm getting out of here and never turning back.

I'm building an arc...or at least a castle. Maybe a very big sand castle, with a very large moat, to seperate me, from all of them.

That would be effective, and productive.